when i looked at the calendar in my handphone, i got a shock of my life! its the last day of february already. hahah dont you think time flies so so quickly? cant believe it. oh i was supposed to work from 3-8pm today. but i didnt receive michelle's [the manager] sms. so i didnt go in the end. oh wells. i wanna work!

anyway i went out with baby today. had lunch and catched a movie together. oh i finally watched A Season For Love! its really nice. heh heh. go watch it people. and he bought 6 novels for me. aaw he's a real sweetheart. i love him. :(

i think.. today will be the last day we see each other. i dont know what to say. just want you to know that, i'll miss you so.


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wenwen ooh okay. then where can we get the volleyball? hmm, yeap i dont mind going to sentosa. but gotta ask the whole class first? and what do you think of the sunday's plan?
jiechong hey thanks for helping me ask qinghui. ;D
chuilaam yes, i read it. and yes, you sound old. haha no lah kidding. you just sound very 'christian'. ;D anyway thanks for your opinions. love you girl. and, i love myself! dont worry. haha :D:D
fred yeah anyway, what do you think of going to sentosa on saturday instead?
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

i want to watch movies! havent been watching movies recently. :( and im so broke now. ahhh. i wanna watch a season for love so desperately. and casanova, the fog, rumour has it, my girl and i, big momma's house 2, dorm, final destination 3 etc etc. oh man. who wanna go and watch with me?! hahaha and who wanna treat me? ;D
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

saw a really nice video through peishi's blog.
http://www.blogskins.com/apply.php?sid=83451&action=Preview

nice & sweet.

makes me think, when am i going to find my mr.right? the one who im going to spend the rest of my life with? the couple in the video seem so happy together. happily and madly in love with each other. will i be like that? will i ever find The One for myself? will i ever be as happy as that girl? will we be that loving and sweet together? i wonder. sometimes when i see couples, it just pains me so much. yeah i know, i always say that singlehood is the best. i meant that. but sometimes, we need a special someone to be by our side too. its really encouraging to know that someone is always there for you no matter what, standing by your side, supporting you and loving you. and sometimes, it feels really comforting to know that you have someone you can hold, and a shoulder you can cry on. i admit, i feel a tinge of jealousy/hurt when i see happy couples together. or just couples holding hands, hugging each other. it brings me back so much memories of me and him. and sometimes it simply hurts too much. when i go blog hopping/friendster surfing, and i see so many couples who are so happy and loving together, it simply hurts. cause i have no one here by my side. im all alone. and maybe, i'll always be. when i see couples wearing couples shirt/shoes/whatever, i wonder when i will have the chance to do that with someone i love. when i see a relationship that still remains strong even after a couple of years, i feel so useless cause i never had a relationship that long before. makes me wonder how they manage to maintain the relationship, and how they know that they are meant for each other. makes we wonder how they can visualise their future together cause i never felt that way before. maybe, i dont even know the meaning of love? maybe i've never loved anyone before even though i thought i loved? can anyone tell me, what exactly is this thing called love? how do you know that you're in love with someone? i wonder.
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

PEOPLE PEOPLE! plans for class chalet.

friday (3rd march)
fredrick's and yanghao's birthday! cheers! we're going to have bbq. there will be 'visitors' too. fredrick's gang (eg. javin, rui an, ryan etc) and his CO friends and juniors (eg. rit, junhong etc). so yes, any objections people? actually, the more the merrier right.. so, dont object okay? haha. ;D

saturday (4th march)
yanghao suggested having breakfast at ya kun. haha and fredrick say that we can play beach volleyball and swim in the sea. and we can cycle too! yes yes. is that fine with all of you? and PUIBOON! can bring volleyball? heh heh. and i think we're gonna have another bbq at night? not sure yet. booked the pits for 2 nights though. yeaps.

sunday (5th march)
gotta check out in the morning, if im not wrong. so we're thinking of having a class outing after that. like maybe, catch a movie together or something? syl suggested watching final destination 3. and i dont mind! haha so how so how? please get back to me soon okay? and please give ANY SUGGESTIONS on what to do on saturday. and any games or what in mind. ;D

the updated list of those who are staying over in the class chalet :
1) Jonathan
2) Aurick
3) Melinda
4) Samantha
5) Jesslyn
6) Fredrick
7) ChiawSang
8) KoonLong
9) GuiJia
10) Wilson
11) PuiBoon
12) YangHao
13) JooHong
14) Madeline
15) Kelvin
16) MinRu

and those who are going, but not confirmed staying :
1) YiHui
2) Dickson
3) YanTou
4) Sylvester
5) JieChong

so, the total cost for the chalet and bbq pit is $290. since only 21 people are going, each person will have to pay about $14. so yes, can we have more people to go please? be more enthu about class chalet? its not easy to plan all these you know. especially when all of us are going to start school soon. oh wells, hope to see more 4JT people attending the class chalet. :)
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

went to have dinner with mel/sam/gj at beach cabana or something. located at east coast park. its a really really nice place with a perfect ambience for couples. yes, especially in the evening, when the sky is dark and the stars are twinkling in the sky. and the only source of light there is the candle on your table. and the songs they play are like super-duperly romantic. gawd i'd love to go there with my boyfriend. haha its really sweet.

anyway after that we went to have a walk at the beach. of course we went separate ways lar. me and mel, sam and guijia. hehe. romantic walk by the beach. so nice. :) i think east coast is a great place to go for couples. maybe next time..

after that they came over to my place cause we left samantha's present and pleasant surprise over here. yeaps she got a big shock when she saw the surprise - the disgusting cake we baked for her. lol the ingredients we put in are really not what you'll expect to find in a cake recipe. wanna know some examples of the stuffs we put in? green peas, curry sauce (the one from mcdonalds), and we mashed up bean sprouts to obtain the 'juice' cause its samantha's most-hated food of all. hahaha i shall not disclose anymore. its just really disgusting.

well obviously she didnt know what the cake was made of. all she knew was that it LOOKED and TASTED utterly disgusting. she was like trying to figure out whats in the 'cake'. hahaha was really funny. wanna see the cake? prepare yourself! lol. here it goes.

disgusting aint it?! you're lucky you're not our samantha. hahaha anyway she was a good sport and she ate it okay! WE LOVE YOU SAMANTHA! muacks! ;D

east coast brought me back memories of you and me. the time when i got back my o levels results and i was so down that i went to east coast alone. and you came all the way to east coast to find me. so sweet of you baby. :) i miss you so much, i really do. you'll always be in my heart. loving you.

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samng of course! i love swarovski k. haha. ;D
yh eh, i ask you help me spread around what. heh.
peishi *hugs* im here for you babe. love you.

(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

pictures taken in cruise! yay yay. OH I WATCHED THE SUNSET FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER. as in, really see the sun setting slowly. haha it was gorgeous and i loved it. took a couple of pictures of it. yeap, i want to see sunrise too! oh man. i cant wait.












anyway, I ATE SO MUCH ON CRUISE. i think i just put on a couple of pounds lol. gotta start dieting already. :( but my plans to diet never succeeds. heh oh wells. ooh and i injured my back on cruise. cause some retarded people pulled me down the stairs. hahaha. pigs. shall blog again soon. love you all loads. xoxo
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

realised i havent been posting any pictures recently. dont want my blog to be too wordy and boring, so here i am! anyway here are the pictures of me and shu tzu on the day me and michelle crashed into TPJC. haha first time we took so many pictures together la. i like the zara shades!! who wanna buy them for me? hehe. ;D









as for the following pictures i took with melinda, they were taken the two nights before. the night she stayed over and we "dolled" each other up. hahaha crazy girl she is. but i still love her to bits. i had so much fun with her these few days especially. she's the sweetest girl ever. xxxx













(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

today's my first day of WORK! hahaha. its kinda tiring actually, but its fun too. get to see alot of different type of people. some customers are really nice and friendly though. hehe manzana has a great working environment la. the staffs are very friendly. :)

hmm, before work today, i went out with my darling tina! that girl is crazy one la. she WANTS to spend money. hahaha and she spent lavishly on buying presents for people. and she even wanted to buy this swarovski butterfly for me, which is really really cute. hahah and she wanted to buy the guess perfume for me too. wah tina, i love you man. ;D the neoprints we took are super nice la. must go out again someday okay. haha. and oh, i bought a guess handbag which is so very nice. i love it to bits.

OH NO, I GAINED ANOTHER KG. (X_X)

okay that is quite random. BUT die, i cant seem to jian fei this year. keep eating and eating and eating. hahaha. HOW?! i need to go to the gym already lar. who wanna accompany me?! i got to start exercising already, seriously. if not im going to turn into one big fat pig. give me the determination to jian fei! dont tempt me with food! ;D

OH YAH, THAT CRAZY GIRL MELINDA STAYED OVER AT MY PLACE AGAIN YESTERDAY. hahaha we have been seeing each other every single night for the past one week. but yesterday was super fun! haha i helped her do manicure! yay yay. 2nd time already, next time you gotta pay me ah. ;D hehe and after that i started dolling her up. hohoho and that crazy girl took a super red lipstick and drew all over my lips and cheeks. stupid girl. we took loadsa crazy pictures but i havent uploaded them into my computer yet. hehe. :)

tomorrow going on cruise with my family, melinda and her sister. hope we'll have a great time together! heh i will be back to update my blog as soon as i can. miss me okay people! cause i will miss you all and my blog too. :) first time im blogging so faithfully. haha gotta continue to be faithful to this darling blog of mine. :)

i hope i wont regret the choice im making. i just want to say that i miss you and i've never regretted being with you at all. thank you for the wonderful memories you gave me. thank you for loving me the way you do. you'll always be someone so special to me. take great care of yourself will you? hugs. you're my dearest boy.


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samng hahaha oh okay. ;D
siyu hmm nothing much lar. :)
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

im so super angry right now. cant you just tell me immediately if you cant go. how am i supposed to tell my dad and, now who's going to pay the bloody fine?! ITS A BLOODY $2000! gahh this is so irritating. think this is the first and the last time my dad is going to allow me to bring friends to anywhere already lar.
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

going on cruise this weekend with my parents, samantha and melinda. from friday evening to sunday morning. wah i super long never go on cruise already lar. even though there's not much stuff to do onboard, but hey, three of us will think of something to do. something fun. oh, and we're going to celebrate samantha's birthday onboard. ;D yay yay! im so excited.

hmm i just read my previous few posts and i realise that i've been very bitter and hateful towards love. or towards everyone or everything actually. so yes, i should change that attitude. like what michael said, God loved us, so we shouldnt hate. and The Bible said in 1Corinthians13:2 that ".. If I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing." and i bet every single one of you out there heard this phrase before - "love makes the world go round". i guess love is important. as in, not just the romantic love, but friendship love, family love and all the other categories of love. but i still think that love hurts. haha.

oh, im going to try my best to finish reading The Bible this year. i want to grow stronger spiritually. like i dont want to remain in this level. i want to grow to the next level. and i'll try to pray faithfully everyday. go jesslyn, you can do it! :D

oh anyways, i applied for a job as a sales assistant in manzana. you know, that shop in citylink which sells all the cute and lovable stuffs. haha sam and mel are already working there. so yeah, i think its quite a good environment. then that guijia very lame lar. he said that, since my 2 sisters are working there, maybe she'll give me affliation points so i can easily get the job. WHAT THE!? haha. gonna start my job training soon and im so excited! ;D hurhur hope i'll get the job. i want to work! to gain some working experience you know.

oh, that henryk got into the JC he wants already. HAHA damn you. but congrats to you. i hope SAJC will accept me. aahh! gotta wait for 10 more days before the postings are released. pray pray pray that i can get in. (:


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samng you applying for that university ah? haha.
fredd haha hello fred. thanks for popping by. :D
ru err.. okay. weird message.
yihui yup, singlehood rocks. :) haha "the singles' club"!
michael okay, dont hate, must love. haha. :D
yh yeap i know i know. its not easy to let go you know.
gl hmm hmm. :)
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

actually, i dont have any updates. like, my life has been the same every single day for the past few days. moping around at home, sleeping and practically just rotting. im just wasting my life away. everyone's been telling me to go out so that i wont think so much and stuffs. but the fact is that, i really have no mood to go out. all i feel like doing is stay at home, in my room, and just sleep my life away. and the only thought in my mind is how much love hurts, and how much it hurts to see couples being together. cause that will only remind me of him. i feel very lost and confused now. i dont know what to do. and i guess yihui is right. the best solution is not fall in love at all; singlehood rocks. arghs i dont know what to say already. its like, february is a cursed month or something. so many of my friends are falling out of love, or breaking up with their loved ones. i dont really believe in love anymore.

anyway, sheauwei made me happy. i feel so flattered by what she said. ahh, the times we shared during NPCC activities were so wonderful. we used to stick together during physical training moments. hahaha and we'll be encouraging each other to run further. like aiming to reach the lamp post or truck in front. and we always succeeded in completing the runs. it was really fun. :) and all the times we went out and took neoprints together. aaw, i love you partner! anyway, here is part of our conversation. =D *anyway i changed our display names to our own names*.

jesslyn says:
i changed very drastically meh?
sheauwei says:
duh
sheauwei says:
FEI HUA
sheauwei says:
you're half the size you were last time
sheauwei says:
and take a look at NP pics and all those you took in sec1
sheauwei says:
like
sheauwei says:
HELLO!?
sheauwei says:
it's like
sheauwei says:
from ugly duckling to SWAN
sheauwei says:
last time already cute
sheauwei says:
now is CHIO lorhs
jesslyn says:
HAHAHA. i still wear the same skirt i wear in sec1 leh. like, there's no change.
sheauwei says:
(-____________________________________-)
sheauwei says:
don't bluff lahh
sheauwei says:
alot of ppl say you lost loads of weight
sheauwei says:
really
sheauwei says:
all my friends say so
sheauwei says:
when they see you


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yh haha i dont know. who cares la.
siyu yupyup hehe. i love you girl. :)
samng haha i went to check already. ;D
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

anyway, class chalet business. i need all of you 4JUSTICE'05 people to tell me who is going to the class chalet and who is not. and also those who are staying over and those who are not. its really important so i hope you all will give me an answer soon. best is by monday/tuesday. oh, and the chalet will be on 3rd-5th march (friday-sunday).

people who are staying over so far (confirmed ones):
1) Jonathan
2) Aurick
3) Melinda
4) Samantha
5) Jesslyn
6) Fredrick
7) ChiawSang
8) KoonLong
9) GuiJia
10) Wilson
11) PuiBoon
12) YangHao
13) JooHong
14) Madeline
15) Kelvin
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

i hate happy couples, like YOU.

my heart is shattered into pieces. and i dont know who can fix them back for me. i feel so alone even though im surrounded by my friends. i feel so lost and so confused. i dont know what to do. please make up your mind, and dont break my heart again and again by saying things that you dont mean. dont you know that letting go of you is the hardest thing i'll ever have to do? do you know how much it hurts deep inside?

i hate people who can get married with their FIRST LOVES.

what a fairytale story they share. so romantic and so sweet eh? urgh, good for you guys. may you all have a happy-ever-after. forever and ever. and sadly, i've never been lucky in the aspect of love. heartbreaks caused me to lose trust in love. what is love anyway? dont ask me that question. i dont and i never will know the answer i guess. what's the point of loving if all it does is hurt you and break your heart? dont get me wrong, my baby is not a bad boyfriend. he is the best boyfriend anyone can ask for and he treats me like a princess. maybe we'll get together again someday.

how do you actually maintain a good relationship for such a long period of time? its not easy, there is bound to be sacrifices. love does not come easy. like what pastor kong said, the key to having a good relationship/friendship with someone is communication. and i personally think that trust is important too. i've just got to learn to practice what i preach. got to change my temper.

i just hate happy couples now.


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passerby haha i did alright only. and yeah i will post about the JAE results. ;D
oli hey girl. thanks thanks. i will take good care of myself. dont worry sis.
samng what college is that? haha. how come i never heard before de? in which city?
michael hey mike. :)
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

EVERYONE, PLEASE VISIT http://jesamel.blogspot.com RIGHT NOW! haha. its really damn nice and please tag when you visit. ;D love you all.

oh people of 4JUSTICE'05, we're considering having a class chalet on 2nd to 4th of march. so if you all have any objections, please tell me/fred asap. best is by monday, 20th feb. thank you everybody!


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samng 173?! are you sure? thats really low. must be some stupid school right? haha..
ivan hey thanks. i'm fine dont worry. i guess time will heal the pain. and please update your blog. :)
gl why you keel me? hoho. you are super dao.
sheaux im not free next weekend! going on cruise. uhm, and can you please show me the cute guy? ;D
fred hey fred! thanks.. i'll be strong. and and, class chalet. :)
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

i want to watch..

1) The Pink Panther
2) A Season For Love
3) Casanova
4) Match Point
5) Rumour Has It
6) Big Momma's House 2
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

hear my heart break.
watch my tears fall.

my tear ducts are empty.
i've got no more tears to cry.
the empty and sad feeling within.
just kill me please. anyone?
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

the memories we have shared;
regardless bitter or sweet,
they will stay in my heart;
never will i delete.

the past nine months together;
was the happiest time of my life,
and if we really do have fate;
one day i'll be your wife.

thank you for your love;
for loving me the way you do,
the ocean-deep love you gave;
baby, i feel the same way too.

now that i have to let you go;
baby i just want to let you know,
that no matter where you go;
i'll always love you so.

you are my one and only;
you are my dear and my hubby,
you are my sweetheart and my honey;
you are my precious and my baby.

i love you with all my heart,
now and always.
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

eventful and tiring day. a sad yet a happy day. im feeling so down yet i enjoyed myself today. i dont know how im feeling right now - mixed, crazy feeling. i sound like a total lunatic.

went to crash tampines junior college with michelle today. that stupid girl siyu woke up late, so she couldnt come along. saw quite a few of my primary school friends and ex-seniors. hmm, and there was quite alot of pretty girls in J2. and good looking guys in J1. haha. we're boy hunting as usual.



after struggling to escape from TPJC (that shu-tzu skipped lessons; so we were like "playing truancy"), we went to city hall to meet samantha and siyu. and as usual, siyu is late again. haha stupid girl. :) we finally have another MJS3 outing after 3 years, and i was damn excited and happy. i miss those girls so much. remember how we used to play at esplanade? haha anyway, we watched the "Pink Panther" together. its quite a lame and funny movie. yeah, but it was kinda short, only 100mins. ;D

after that we went to esplanade! yay it was to re-live the moments we shared in the past. but samantha had to go after a while. so the four of us hanged around there for a while before heading to bugis to take neoprints! yes, thats our hobby la. hahaha.

anyway, i still have alot of pictures to upload. waiting for michelle and siyu to send them to me. and the neoprints - waiting for tzu to scan them. will post them up soon. :) so, thats the end of my happy moments today.

as for the sad part, i'd rather not say it out here. i love everybody. :) and thank you to those people who lent me their shoulders to cry on. especially s&f, min ru (for staying over and accompanying me), melinda (for your consolings, love, care and concern), jerlin (for wanting to come and visit me), guanliang (for being there for me like you always do), charlene (for cheering me up the way you do), hakim (for giving me your wonderful advices), samantha fong and siyu.

baby, i miss you so so much. please take good care of yourself. rest well and remember to take your medicine! hope you recover from your fever and chicken pox soon. dont make me worry alright? talk to you soon. you know i still love you so.

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samng haha good enough to apply to university or not?
sheaux oh, so no more valentines day outing for us? nevermind haha can we go out again soon please? ;D
peishi of course i remember. :) you said you'll be there for me, just like how i was there for you. *hugs* love you girl.
ru hey honey, dont worry, i'll be just fine. thanks for everything. muacks.
gl why you poke me? *poke you back*
xJ haha not bad not bad. but the girls are so pretty too!!

(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

today is the worst day - ever.

baby's not here to accompany me.
min ru is being cold to me. (or am i oversensitive?)
chiawsang is angry at me.
sengchye is ignoring me.
im hungry and bored.

nevermind, forget it.
im tired of all these and i dont know what to do.
i really need a listening ear.
and a shoulder to cry on.
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)




cant you see that im fatter now? and i got pimple breakout. anyway those are my beloved girls whom i have been hanging out with since i was in sec1. i love thm to bits. i had great fun with them yesterday.

hmm, im feeling really down; today is the worst day. i've lost the meaning of friends. whatever. i dont know what to say.

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST BABY. and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING SISTER CAROLINE.
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

happy valentines day everyone! hahaha. I HAD A GREAT TIME TODAY! except for the fact that everywhere i go, i see couples and i feel so envious la. haha. all the girls were carrying bags of presents and a big bouquet of roses. my gosh, lucky them. i really miss my baby alot. I LOVE YOU MY DEAR. ;D

anyway i met sengchye in the morning for awhile. then after that went to meet ivan at orchard already. oh, and jerrick came along too. we ate at pastamania and they keep commenting that im fierce. WHERE GOT?! im so lady-like okay! hahaha after that we went to takashimaya, cause ivan need to buy his dad's birthday present. in the end, he chose to buy a Guess wallet. oh, and we saw his ex working there. i thought she looked damn familiar. haha.

after that i went to meet siyu, michelle, junqing and ruian for a movie. "the constant gardeners" - its quite a boring movie. i slept for like 30mins. so i didnt really understand it. hahaha then after that michelle's friend, edmund, came and join us. and that ruian wanted to buy slippers, so we walked all the way to heeren from lido. met chunchen at orchard mrt, and met shutzu and grace at heeren. and we decided to go KBOX! oh, we saw sally and darren. and i saw my primary school friend, jiamin! she's still as chio as ever hahaha.

it was super fun okay! hahaha we were singing and screaming like crazy. chose alot of my husband (jay chou)'s songs. hahaha and we took alot of pictures with siyu's and michelle's camera. must wait for them to send me the pictures first, then i can upload. hahaha. so yeap. thats what i did today la. it was really fun. but if only i can spend valentines day with baby. really miss him alot. BABY I LOVE YOU! oh wells, happy valentines day everyone!

oh and! my first choice for the JAE application is St. Andrew's Junior College. please pray that i can get in everyone. im so desperate to go there.

FROM RUI AN!

FROM SENGCHYE!

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asdf what the! hahaha yihui also got tip-toe okay. :(
wenwen haha good luck girl, and you're welcome. ;D
gl you want to leave me alone? fine lo. you good.
ru yup i applied already.. you le girl?
chuilaam haha i also. i was at home the whole day yesterday.
samng never! haha.. so how? your SAT?

(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

today is such a boring day! nowhere to go, nothing to do. baby is back in camp ; min ru is working ; i dunno where is samantha and melinda ; guan liang is in school ; seng chye is out with his girlfriend ; my dearest sheauwei, chuilaam and xuejun disappeared (are we still having our valentines day outing? haha).

actually, thats about all the people i hang out with. thats kinda little hahaha. never mind, im staying at home today and i shall think of what course to take in poly. oh, and my darling jay chou is here to accompany me. how can i forget?
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

listen to my heart break, watch as my tears fall.
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

TAY PUI BOON! here are the pictures you want. hahaha. as for the pictures with Mr.Gan, i will send it to you soon. hehehe. ;D




anyway, i had a smashing time yesterday! hahaha. i finally spent some time with my dearest samantha and melinda! and what great fun it was. we actually didnt spend much time outside cause we were really exhausted. nevermind, we can go out again some time soon. hahaha. but they came and stayed over at my place. ;D oh oh, we bought identical bras. the three of us. HAHA.

then jer came over. and so did baby. hahaha and jer went to buy supper for us. the usual, ROTI PRATA! hahaha. and the creative melinda and jerlin started a family tree. it was super funny and we played games cause there were 3 left over pratas and a bottle of 1.5litres green tea. we were laughing like mad, and it was like, 3am in the morning.

after that we went to the playground and went for a walk. hoho we were too full already lah. and we reached home at like, 5:30am. wanted to walk to east coast but we didnt. lol it was really fun though. :) i love cuddling with baby to sleep. hehe. but i was really sad that i didnt make it to church again. i think i should go for the saturday evening service next week.

anyway, im going to singapore poly! that is, before i go over to USA. just temporarily. hoho. going there with min ru. cause the course that girl wants is only available in SP. hehe WANGMINRU!

i suddenly have the cravings for ice-cream.


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passerby i did alright. can go to JC or poly. :) thanks for asking.
wenwen haha yes! the pics we took on friday are posted already. so how? which JC you decide on?
sheaux i tag already! haha and i havent receive my vday present from you too k! oh oh, are we still going out?
yihui hahah! i know. your hard works pay off already, so congratulations! so are you going to stay in nyjc or what? ;D
peishi hey dearie. im here for you okay? cheer up girl. love you loads..
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

oh my stars. I FEEL SO RELIEVED NOW. no longer have to live in fear HAHA! i was so nervous that i nearly cried when we were in the grand auditorium. actually, min ru had to drag me into the grand audi and force me to sit down. HAHAHA. when they showed the powerpoint presentation of how our batch did, i almost died. it was so scary. :( hmm, i hope everybody did up to their own expectations.

that wicked jazreel cheated my feelings. she made me so worried lar. ;( meanie! bluff me about your results. haha glad you did well anyway. love you loads! thanks for your constant encouragement. heheh you're the best.

anyway, i went to bugis with chuilaam, sheauwei and xuejun. its been ages since the 4 of us hung out together and i had a great time. and as usual, we take the nicest and cutest neoprints ever. HAHAHA. love them so much. they're like the craziest people. especially chuilaam and sheauwei, so enthusiastic about MJC's school cheers. lol ;D

oh thank you so much baby for the swarovski thing you give me. ;D you're so sweet and i love you so much! i really wouldnt have let you buy it if i knew its so expensive. you're so silly hehe. thank you baby.


samantha and melinda are coming to stay over tonight! hehe my two dearies. we'll update ourselves tonight yeah? ;D love you girls loads.

thanks for those people who tries to comfort and encourage me yesterday and the day before. especially baby, minru, sengchye and guanliang. you guys are the best. :)


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peishi i love you no matter what. im here when you need me. muacks.
gl haha right. :)
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

i dread going to school tomorrow.

i feel so edgy now. waiting for the results which will be released 20 hours later. oh my stars. i seriously need to stop thinking about it before i go crazy. ahhhh! im going to leave after i take my results man. people, please dont ask/tell me anything related to results tomorrow. thank you, i love you all. good luck everyone.
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

IM MUCH HAPPIER TODAY. :) everybody could tell, oh yay! jazreel, thank you so much for everything. you're always there for me when im down. trying to cheer me up and saying encouraging things when i feel defeated. you're the best and i love you! gamble and win okay? then can share your earnings with me lol.

i went out with min ru today! met her at somerset mrt. before that met up with seng chye for awhile. yupyups, anyway there's this really nice, new neoprint machine at heeren. everybody should go and take it!

[interruption: MELINDA JUST SMSED ME SOMETHING SHOCKING. AND ITS MAKING ME MORE WORRIED THAN I ALREADY AM. SHE HEARD THAT 93% OF THE BATCH TAKING O LEVELS GOT A1 FOR EMATH. AND 90% INTERPRETED THE LETTER WRITING WRONGLY (IM ONE OF THEM) AND 70% FAILED SOCIAL STUDIES (WHICH I THINK I DID, CAUSE I HAVE NEVER PASSED MY SS BEFORE). FREAAAK!!]

okay that just spoiled my mood. im in no mood to blog already. :( hope it just some stupid rumour la. i dont know how im going to get through the next 36 hours. its so torturing. i cant wait to take the results and go home and cry or something. IM STRESSED. havent been feeling this way since prelims/olevels.

i had a great time today anyway. still love today. im gonna have to stop thinking about that statistics. see you people and PRAY HARD FOR ME PLEASE.


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samng NO ORAL MAN! i was so happy. ;D but my score range very large. how?
peishi yeah, what to do? so long never talk to you. JC sucks. ;P
ru never la! i put it up cause i love you. xoxo
gl another song lyrics? lol
yihui cause the 2kg went to my tummy! thats what my friend say. god thats so depressing.
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

im not as happy as i appear to be. my life is not as smooth sailing as it seems. i have more problems than i seem to have. there's a smile plastered to my face, a fake happy smile. yet no one seem to notice the sadness behind that smile. only min ru did. she asked me whats wrong, and even though i said nothing, she knew that something was going on. i dont know what i will do without her. she's always there for me, no matter what. through thick and thin. i love you girl.


im really tired of all these. im going to break down soon. why cant they understand me? why cant they support my decision? why do they have to make things so hard for me? why do they always scold me over this matter? why are they so overprotective? i cant take this anymore.
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

im so tired. woke up late this morning. took a cab and rushed to the exam centre lol. took 2 hours to complete everything, and thank God there was no oral. yay yay yay! after that i went to meet min ru at her workplace. you should love me for entertaining you hahaha. and we had our dinner at our usual place - pastamania. and we ate our usual dish - creamy chicken. and we ordered our usual drink - vanilla coke. lol i miss hanging out with that girl so much. :) and she's staying over again tonight! hahaha we're going to have so much fun. i shall post some of the pictures we took. most are in our phones though, so i cant post them up yet. :D here goes! (i know i grew fatter, its so obvious lol. im going on a diet, dont worry)






anyway i've been tagged by pui boon to do some questionaires again hahaha.

ES: Express your love for SE7EN and get others to know more about you. Copy and paste the following into your own blog and complete all SE7EN bullets of the SE7EN questions. Then, pick SE7EN ppl to pass it on! Have fun!

SE7EN things that make me smile
1. my dearest baby 2. my beloved friends 3. listening to jay's songs 4. looking at jay's pictures 5. going to church 6. when i accomplish something 7. disneyland!

SE7EN ways to win my heart
1. be there for me when i need someone 2. listen to my problems and rantings 3. make me smile and laugh 4. cheer me up when im down 5. love me for who i am 6. hug me when im feeling scared 7. be as sexy as jay?

SE7EN things I believe in
1. God/Jesus Christ 2. heaven 3. miracles 4. love 5. He will never forsake you 6. ask, and you will receive 7. you reap what you sow

SE7EN things I'm afraid of
1. insects 2. spiders 3. height 4. getting hurt 5. losing someone i love 6. gaining weight 7. being ignored

SE7EN things that I do everyday
1. text message 2. shower 3. sleep 4. eat 5. come online 6. sing 7. praise the Lord

SE7EN people who should also do this
1. peishi 2. jazreel 3. sheauwei 4. pearlin 5. dickson sim 6. caroline 7. alvin
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

i couldnt get up in time to go to church and im so sad. i was so looking forward to go back to city harvest. :( guess im too exhausted from the plane ride. i remember my sister trying to get me up but my eyes wouldnt open. gahhh!

im glad to be back in singapore, but i miss the people back there too haha. oh wells. i just got back home anyway. went to suntec with baby. i miss spending time with him hehehe. we went to watch movie. i not stupid too. its really good, please watch it people. its really funny and touching, and i bet you will laugh and cry. hoho.

we ate ben&jerry's too. :D yes, ice-cream is as sinful as chocolate. but its heavenly, and i cant resist such temptations lol. oh and we went shopping! i bought this huge initial d poster. :) and another jay poster lol. and i bought a winnie the pooh mug. and another tigger mug. and a collection of winnie the pooh postcards. lol i spent so much and im so broke now. oh oh, and i saw this chopard watch thats really nice! lol. SGD$10,000. :(

hmm, after that we went to paya lebar to have dinner. and we met chiawsang at city hall mrt, took the same train. and sheauwei and yensen boarded the train at bugis lol. what a coincidence. singapore is really small aint it? hoho. its great to see them again. :)

hmm, min ru is staying over at my place tonight! hahaha cant wait to see her. we're gonna have so much fun tonight. so, i will blog again tomorrow. take care everyone! i love you guys. ;D


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samng lol im not retarded okay. aaahhhh its tomorrow sam. how how how!
mel hahaha yeah. so how was sentosa? meet up soon girl! love you. :)
peishi yes im back. i know you miss me! hahaha. anyway i have so much chocolate at my place, and i cant resist them. :(
sheaux yah! im living in fear right now. lol i cant wait to go out with you guys. :)
gl hey, thanks. you better tell me whats going on.
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

i miss him so bad. someone help me.


kini harus aku lewati,
sepi hariku, tanpa dirimu lagi.
biarkan kini ku berdiri,
melawan waktu, 'tuk melupakanmu.
walau pedih hati,
namun aku bertahanya.
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)

i am currently obsessed with Chopard watches after hakim introduced them to me. haha this is bad. and im so in love with one that costs USD$32,000. gosh, when in the world will i be able to get one for myself?

anyway i had a great crapping session with aurick just now for a solid four hours. haha we were saying how much we miss chung cheng and of course, 4 justice. dont you just miss secondary school times? the memories we all share. four years is simply to short. i miss all of you so much. outing please?








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