THE LIMS ♥

Friday, March 09, 2007

Had a long talk with Baby yesterday. I love you so much boy.
I realised that I'm so different than who I really was last time.
It's like I'm a totally different person, & I dont recognize myself anymore.
I'm gonna change, back to who I was, back to the cheerful me.
The happy and optimistic girl, the girl who loves to laugh & not cry.
He misses that girl. The girl he fell in love with.

I know that Baby loves me, and I love him so much too.
I've never for one second doubted your love for me Baby.
But I know that there are so many things that are coming between us.
If he's meant to be mine, he'll be mine..
If he loves me and wants to be with me, then he's mine.
If he stops loving me and wants to leave me, I'll accept it graciously.

Because, why should I hold on to someone who doesnt love me?
Why should I force things to work out?
Love is not meant to be like that. Happiness can't be forced.
Love doesn't mean that we have to be together.
Sometimes, life is just not that perfect.
Sometimes, things does not turn out the way we want it to be.
I'll be happy as long as you are Baby.

Even though I so want to get through this with you together,
Even though I want to spend the rest of my life with you so badly,
Even though I love you with all my heart and soul,
Even though I want to be the one who brings you joy,
Even though I want to take care of you forever,
I will let you make the decision.. The decision is in your hands.

I know you told me that I will never ever lose you.
You told me that we will stay together for always..
But Baby, I just want you to know this:
No matter what choice you make in the future,
I just want you to know that I will never ever stop loving you.
Maybe you'll decide to leave me, maybe you'll stop loving me,
But I will never stop loving you cos you are someone so special to me.

I've sorted my thoughts out, and I'm going to be a strong girl.
I'm not going to let myself get trapped in this evil world of pain.
I'm not going to lose the battle, I'm going to be strong.
Maybe I have lost faith, but I'm going to regain it again..

Baby, I just want you to know that I love you.
And I'm sorry that I have been this way for the past three months.
I know you said it's not my fault, but I'm still sorry.
I know I have been unreasonable & crazy & oversensitive at times.
Okay okay, maybe most of the times. (I'm sorry)
And you took it all. You always took it, and comforted me.
I love you Baby. You will always be my boo :)

Like you said, "Once one boo leaves, the other one will die."
And you said that I'm your one and only boo forever..
You said that there will only be one boo in everyone's life.
And I promise you I will never leave you.
I will only walk away from you if you decide to leave me.
Love.. You taught me how to love someone unconditionally.

Missing my friends and sec school and jc.
They're my source of joy and laughter :)
I especially miss those basketball/soccer times.
I miss those soccer matches so much..
And what happens after every soccer match :)

Those happy moments we shared.. We'll go back to what we used to be.

And I will love you so, for always.

(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)