Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Valentine's Day.Why don't I share the same joy and excitement everyone has for this special day? When all my friends are enjoying themselves and spending this special day with their darling loved ones, I'm spending it all alone. In school and at home. Alone with no family no boyfriend no friends. Alone thousands of miles apart. Alone 16 hours away. No presents, no chocolates, no cookies. No joy, no fun, no love. No calls, no emails, no smses. Only baby and Shu-Tzu actually called me to wish me happy Valentine's day. And only Melinda smsed me. I'm such a loser. And a loner. I'm drifting away from everything and from everyone. I don't know why I'm holding on to everything I have back in Singapore. Life goes on, friends come and go. Why do I always expect every single one of my friends to stay by my side? I feel like I've lost so many of them, majority of them. I should start making new friends over here before I become a loner in the super near future. Whatever, I can just go and die. I'm so tired of everything. I'm tired of being so far away from everything i own. I'm tired of school. I'm tired of being alone. I'm tired of crying everyday. I'm tired of getting my heart broken. I'm tired of driving myself crazy. I'm tired of thinking. I'm tired of being afraid. I'm tired of living in fear and pain. I'm tired of life. I'm so tired and I'm losing my strength.. And no one is there to hold me up when I'm falling. Because I'm alone.
I'm being an emo shit.
(Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you, but trusting them not to)
